Nicole Kidman has opened up about her divorce from Keith Urban in a new interview, saying the future is “completely unknown to me right now.”

Kidman quietly filed for divorce from Urban in Nashville last September after 19 years of marriage. By January, the divorce was finalized, citing irreconcilable differences. The couple agreed to share custody of their two daughters (Sunday Rose, 18, and Faith, 15); neither sought spousal support, and they did not have to appear in court.

In a wide-ranging interview for British Vogue’s September issue, Kidman said she was taking a “feelings first” approach to her new single era.

“That’s just who I am. I don’t overthink things and I’m probably not that analytical. I’m far more feeling-centered and I lead with my heart... It throws people, because I think they think I’ll be far more measured and I’m not,” she said.

“I can still approach things intellectually,” she continued, “but my desire is not to be ruled by my head. I’ve always wanted to live a well-examined life, so what does that entail? Trying things, making mistakes, failing, getting back up, moving on, embracing love, staying open, keeping the heart open and the possibilities.”

Nevertheless, Kidman admitted it had not been the easiest year. “But at the same time I’m like, ‘OK, I didn’t expect this. I had a different view of what my life was going to be, but this is what it is now.’ You make all these plans and you have all these ideas of what it’s all going to be like and then it’s… not. You have to adjust. You adapt. The future, it’s completely unknown to me right now.”

Asked if she found the uncertainty of her future scary, Kidman replied: “There was a point where I was very fearful and deeply vulnerable, which is exposing. And then at the same time [I’m] going, ‘Well, I can either really not confront it and just curl up, or I can just go forward with an enormous amount of hope.’”

Both hailing from Australia, Kidman and Urban met in Los Angeles in 2005 and married in Sydney the following year.

It was Urban’s first marriage and Kidman’s second, following her marriage to Tom Cruise from 1990 to 2001.

Kidman has recently been linked to LA-based private equity investor named Michael Reinstein. The two were spotted having a conversation on the balcony of her Portofino, Italy, hotel last month. She has not commented publicly on the nature of their relationship.

See the full feature on Kidman in the September issue of British Vogue, available via digital download and on newsstands from Thursday 20th August.